5.09.2016

re-breaking

“Resetting of broken bones,” He whispered, “That’s what I am doing.”

A little perplexed, I turned to google and a quick search had me in tears.

Here's the thing. The term often used is "re-break." This means that the doctor is going to break again a bone that has previously been broken. In a more technical term, this is referred to as fracture reduction (or resetting). It is the procedure that aims to restore and align correctly the broken bones.

The first and main reason why re-breaking is necessary is that the bones heal incorrectly sometimes. When your bones break, they become deformed. When they heal by themselves, they are still deformed and this condition may have some problems. First, bone deformity can affect how you move. You may not be able to move as freely as before if some of your bones are not aligned correctly. Second, bone deformity is not visually pleasing. It does not look good therefore a lot of people undergo resetting of the bones. After the re-breaking of your bone, your doctor will proceed to aligning the bones so that when they heal, they will heal in the right manner and position.

If we can trust a doctor to inflict pain for our benefit, how much more can we trust our Creator, Restorer, Provider? 

Then, in the image a little girl holding her broken arm so close to her body, not letting anyone near enough to help her, not listening to the Father who was faithfully by her side through the tears shouting, “You don't have to be like this,” yet deafened by her pain and insisting to will her body healed, I saw myself. It was then that both google and the gospel reiterated what my heart already knew but didn't want to admit: no matter how hard I tried to heal my brokenness, I was still deformed. I knew I was injured, but I didn’t want to work through the process of proper healing. I knew the One who offered restoration freely, but, quite honestly, I was tired of the pain and didn't think I had the stamina to endure the healing.

And in the image of a great physician, calm and compassionate, relentlessly contending for my highest best even when I didn’t have the capacity (or the desire) to see it for myself, I saw the Lord. Steadfastly picking up the broken pieces of my life and offering beauty for ashes, He stayed. Contending for my highest best until it became manifest, He fought. Offending me with a love that believed in me in a way I refused to, He persevered.

The reality is, going higher will always involve suffering. The nearness of Yahweh will keep us secure, but not always safe. It will hurt and it will cost. But even in the seasons of re-breaking our bones, we can see Him as gracious and kind and abounding in love because we know we have a God who says, “Come as you are.” And when we do, He is faithful to make us more like who He is. Whole. Restored. Healed.

"God is confident that we will look back and be lost in wonder at the spectacular love that planned 
even our darkest moments." - T. Keller

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